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Paw.

So, its only been forever since I have posted and have really let my blog go. I have been wanting to take the time and start it up again. I have lots on my mind and in my heart to say, so here goes...

Well, today a great man's life ended. My Grandpa. He has been sick and suffering for a long time now and finally is at peace, and knowing that brings me to peace. It sure doesn't make things easier for the loved ones he leaves behind, but it is reassuring to know his pain is gone at last. 

I just got back from a good mind clearing run and thought about Paw almost the whole time. I created this sort of timeline in my mind of our life together. I was thinking back to my earliest memories of him. I was about 5 or 6 and we use to go to his house often to eat supper. Cooking was his talent and passion...most of you know this. But at that age, I never wanted to eat his cooking. I would turn my nose up to everything. He would tell me I didn't know what I was missing(and boy was he right!)... but nonetheless, he would fix me a bowl of butter rice.

 I remember the summers I spent with him. We would hang out every day. He would take me on his shopping trips where he would patiently browse every isle. He always knew how to find a deal. He would faithfully watch his stories and the price is right, while I played around on the computer in his office and dug in stuff. He would always grate me some fresh Parmesan cheese, I would eat it with my fingers straight out of the bowl. We would go to the pet store and although my parents never allowed me to get a guinea pig, which I wanted so badly...Paw still bought me the books to read all about them. It was the next best thing to having one. We shared the same love for Cabbage Patch Kids and he would let me peak in his closet sometimes at his special ones. I could go on and on...

As I grew older our visits may not have been as often, but the time we did spend was just as meaningful. I remember it was around the year 2000. I must have been about 11. I was terrified of the whole Y2K thing. I was so scared the world would end when the new year came. Paw told me to not worry. He assured me that people had been saying for years certain dates would be the end of the world. He was right.

Not too many memories through my teen years, besides when he scolded me for dying my hair and questioned any new color...Hehe. 

Fast Forward to my adult life...I realize just how special of a person my Grandpa is. He didn't take life for granted and always loved with all he had. He was always so spirited for all the holidays. I will miss that the most. No holiday will be the same without Paw's cheer he brought and set the scene with. We will carry that on though as best as we can. He was an awesome Great-Grandpa to Carter, and then Cade. He loved on Camille for a few months before he got sick. 

Then, through these last several months I still have great memories. Even, the pain and misery he was going through he still found the joy in life. Puckering his lips when he saw me for a kiss or just smiling so big, even through the pain...or Giving me a pouty lip when it was time for me to go home. He would always ask about the kids and how everyone was. It was never about what he was going through, but always about what we were up to....

We sure will miss that wonderful man. I am so thankful for all our memories together. Paw will always be in our hearts and in everything we do.

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